The Offer

I knew it was coming. Ever since I found out my manager was leaving.
I knew that the Head Manager would ask me if I wanted to take the other manager's position.

Though honestly it's just a formality at this point.
Because I've refused that position multiple times now.

I mean, I know I'm capable and such of said position.
But it's not....a fun job.
Being a manager isn't fun.
And my goal is to do what I love.
And I love where I'm currently at.

So it's no surprise to the managers when I refuse to step up into a manager position.
Still. They ask....
I think in the hopes that I have changed my mind.

Still haven't.
Still won't unless something changes in my mind in the next little while.

But there's always that slight tension. That 'what if' plague of questions that follows me whenever I again turn down the offer.

Because...what if I should move on, and step up and do this and that and the other?

*shakes head*

It's enough to bring me slight tension and stress.

And occasionally enough to give me another headache. Ugh.
>.<
I need to stop getting those....
I need to stop tensing myself up so I stop getting those....