Me: So let's get this scene written!

Brain: But we can't!

Me: Why not?

Brain: Because you need to know this little tiny detail first!

Me: But why? The readers won't notice it.

Brain: But what if they do? And it's wrong? And they complain!

Me: But they might not.

Brain: But if they do?

Me: *exhales* Fine. *goes to look up details of thing* 

Writing Strain

I have a slight headache developing behind my right eye.
Why?
Probably because I've been focusing on writing all day. 
And with intense focus....comes the hunching over a computer screen and such. ^^;; 

It probably also doesn't help that I've been snacking all day instead of eating real food....

Hopefully I can make it go away soon. ^^;; 

Long Day

Ended up with a slight headache today after work.

I think mostly from a lack of sleep, boring work shift, and lack of water.
Though the  noisiness of roommates and the tension involved in having to deal with said noise probably also made the headache come a bit more forcefully.

Thankfully though, 
Some heat on my back and Excedrin has helped to minimize the headache. 
Hopefully with the quiet in the house my headache will be able to stay away. 

Though with the expectation of frustrated roomies coming back imminently...we shall see how well this works out. 

Click Bang Thud

I twitched, finding it increasingly difficult to keep my face neutral as the woman nearby continued to slam her silverware against her plate like she was auditioning for the position of drummer in a band. My fingers whitened on my pen as I tried, and failed, to focus on the paper in front of me that needed to be turned in by the end of the day. I'd figured that sitting in the breakroom at work after my shift ended wouldn't have been an issue. It remained empty most of the day after all, but then the woman had to come in. A newbie I'd never seen before. She'd proceeded to move about the kitchen like a stampeding herd of elephants, making the room echo with bangs and thuds and clinking glass. My eye twitched again as the woman clinked her fork against the side of the bowl, scrapping the inside edge for every last grain of rice she'd been chowing down on. I could do this. I could tolerate this noise assaulting my senses I just--I shoved the chair away from the table, and stood, grabbing my paperwork. I could do this at home. There at least I knew I could find quiet. 

-Inspiration from being noise sensitive today.

ReOpening

I hadn't expected much to have changed at work after the fire. A fresh coat of paint, some new tiles, probably a handful of replacement shelves...Honestly I would have expected the company to go as cheap as possible in order to reopen the store as quickly as possible and get back into creating income from our location.
Yet, walking through the doors that opened quietly with a soft whoosh and no grumbling rattle...I couldn't stop myself from gapping in shock, coming to a complete standstill just inside. 
This place...I couldn't even word it right. The main thought coming to my mind was...New. It was all New. Brand new sleek registers with conveyor belts, a completely new design set up for the aisles, and the cages....my entire department had been remodeled. A new wall of fishtanks with hundreds of new varieties of fish met my eyes like a wall of candy in a sweets shop. Even the cages for the other animals in the store had been updated. Giving the whole place a very modern, if not futuristic look. 
"Wow." The word lift my lips. Just. Wow. 

-Inspiration from talking to an old coworker about a new store that is opening this weekend. (No fire was involved.)

Surrounded

I ended up with a slight headache yesterday evening.
Mostly I think from the tension of being surrounded by a ton of people for a long period. 

Like hundreds of people surrounded. 
With a constant babbling background of their excited voices....
*exhales* 
It quickly got on my nerves. :S 

Because me, I like my quiet. 
And while I can tolerate being around people for a short time.
Having people constantly talking around me about things I could care less about....it's draining and their energy swirling about me...yah....I don't like it much. Or at all.

So having to deal with that buffering, yah an ache developed behind my right eye, that thankfully went away when I woke up this morning....meaning that part of the headache was due to not enough sleep.... 

Though unfortunately, the headache came back this afternoon.

I'm guessing it's again from tension, maybe not enough sleep, and more tension.
*exhales*
So hopefully....it fades away and I don't have to worry about it keeping me up all night. 

A Difficult Outcome

I stared after her retreating back, a flash of irritation coursing down my spine. 
What had she expected me to say? What had she wanted me to say? It wasn't like we could have gotten the dog in any case. It had been sold. So instead of wishing for how good of a dog it could have been if it had been able to come into our home, I went the opposite way. Saying why that dog wouldn't have worked out anyways. Trying to show that that dog, even if it appeared to be perfect in the picture wouldn't have been a good fit. 
Apparently it was the wrong thing, judging by the stiff set of her shoulders. 
Silently I exhaled, meandering my way slowly after her. I didn't know what she wanted of me. But it seemed like in this case, no matter which route I took....I would have lost anyways. 

-Inspiration from a roomie encounter

A Quick Exit

The tension hit me like a wall as I entered the room and I had to wonder if the sisters could feel how the energy around them pulsed. Through their smiles, their smooth and kind words, I could feel the competition. The need for each of them to prove themselves the better the sister, the best, the most accomplished. 

I offered a smile as they glanced towards me, like Queens glaring at the commoner who dared stumble into their court. I didn't say a word, turning my focus on getting into my room to grab my power cord and getting back up the stairs as quickly as possible. I didn't need to be anywhere near that, nor did I have any desire to do anything about the tension filling the space. They would need to work it out themselves. I wasn't going to do it. I doubted they'd even listen if I tried. 

-Inspiration from roommate interacting with family. 

Me: Alright! So we have this game plan to write this stor---*watches an awesome video thing* 

Brain: WE NEED TO WRITE A STORY FROM THAT!!!

Me: ()_() But....I know it was awesome and I love it! But those other fics---

Brain: NO WE NEEED TO WRITE THE THING!!!

Me: What thing are we writing though?

Brain: I don't KNOW but WE ARE WRITING A THING!!

At Work

I ended up with a headache at work and I don't even know why.
Honestly I think it was the headache that was threatening me last night.
That finally made an appearance this morning. *exhales*

Which....I hate delayed stress headaches.
Like why?
I was stressed yesterday no need to be stressed toady.

Especially in the middle of a busy Saturday.
Where like....I need to be able to focus and help customers and such. 
*exhales* 

So I did what I could at work to make it go away. Took some meds, did some essential oils, heatpacks on my break and resting my eyes, as well as drinking a lot of water.
Which helped a bit. 
Though I still feel the tension in my shoulders.
Soooo 

Hopefully I can make that tension fade and keep the headache from fully coming back.

Drama Approaches

I was trying to not get tense. 
Trying to relax.

But Drama suddenly rushed into the home space.
Causing Tension.
Because sooo many unknowns are still at play.
So many unknown reactions. 

And this has caused my shoulders to tense up.
Which if it doesn't go away soon, will mean a full blown headache coming my way.
Though hopefully if I play my cards right.
And somehow get myself to relax the tension in my shoulders.
I'll be able to avoid the headache. 
*fingers crossed* 

Me: Okay, once we get off work we're going to work on writing out scenes from these three different fics alright?

Brain: OKAY!

Me: Good.

*New Content for Fic becomes available* 

Me: Watches.

Brain: OOOO!!! *distracted*

Me: ....huh....was I going to write something?? 

Small Beginnings

Ended up with the slight beginnings of a headache this evening.
Because my roomies were being a bit...spazzy with their energy today and sudden intense 'needs' that had the energies swirling around like crazy and were getting me tense. 

But some Excedrin and moving into a different room and putting on music so I can't hear the others in the house has seemed to help it go away. 

Continuing

Still have that headache today.
It's been coming and going.
For a while at work I was able to make it vanish entirely.
But coming back home, not taking a nap (yet) and working on a writing project instead....

Appears to have brought the headache back to the forefront of my skull. 
*exhales*
Not. Fun.

Hopefully it will fade with the sun and I'll be able to focus on other projects.... but we'll see....

Overstressing Myself

I ended up giving myself a headache today.
Due to stressing myself out.

It was probably triggered when I realized I probably made a customer walk out of the store -deciding not to buy the things they were purchasing- because a) I had been stuck on register for a bit so couldn't help her personally with an issue b) told her she could get help from another coworker who ended up being busy -though I sent a second coworker to help her and then c) when I realized register was backing up and that she was waiting...helped a different customer first -cus that customer had been waiting in line first in a different line -and yah....I looked up from helping that customer to realize the one customer I'd been aiming to help...had vanished and I'm pretty sure she just decided her experience here hadn't been the best and bagged the entire buying trip. Y_Y 
Ooops.

I mean I can't make everyone happy. 
But oops. 

And like I had an ache behind both eyes which may have started around that point...an ache that indicated I was tired and needed more sleep.

So being in need of more sleep.
Then not being able to help that customer.

And then suddenly dealing with having to multi-task talking to a needy customer on the phone while I was backing up a rush at the register because literally I was the only person there to help out and I hadn't wanted the phone to keep ringing....*exhales*

I ended up overextending myself, stressed myself out more....and am now suffering the consequences.

I tried meds. A shower. heatpack. Sleeping. walking around the block. water. Etc.

And got my headache to the point of being faintly there.
But I feel like it's not going to go away tonight.

Hopefully it's gone by the time I need to get up for work. 
....but I'm rather doubtful of that actually happening. 

Me: Alright! We're almost done with this fic, we just need to buckle down and get the last few lines--

Brain: Look what I found! *sparkly new story idea*

Me: That's nice but.

Brain: Look!

Me: No.

Brain: Look!!!!

Me: *reluctantly looks* ()_() OHhhhhh

Brain: WRITE IT! Write it NOW!

Me: So I want to take a more realistic route with this story 
Story: How about *jazz hands* we don’t? *dangles supernatural element in front of me.* 
Me: ()_() Ooooo soooo shiiiinnyyyy. *grabs it* MINE! 
*two minutes later* 
Me: *realizes what just happened* HEY!! I WAS TRYING—AGH!!!
Story: ^^;;

Me: So! Game plan. We’re going to write this story out and hit Points A. B. and C and get this thing finished! Got that? 

Brain: *looks up from the third tangent we’ve gone down* Uhmm…I got lost after…A? 

Me: *eye twitch*

A Shift

It seemed like they would always be there.
The same group.
The same dynamic 
The same old set up within our workplace.
It had stayed the same for so long, it was nigh impossible to picture it changing.
But despite how perfect everything seemed.
Change was on the horizon.
A single instance.
A single person leaving.
And the dynamic changed.
A domino fell.
And one after the other.
They left.
Until all that remained of the original group....
Was me. 

-Inspiration from talking to an old coworker at work today

Little Stressors

It probably was triggered with worry related stress.
My headache.

As yesterday my manager told me that he and the stocking manager had switched shifts.
Meaning that instead of my manager helping me open up the department, it would be the stocking manager helping me. 
Which...I believe the stocking manager has had Petcare experience and such, but I don't know how much. 

And I wasn't really in the mood to train this manager on how to do things.
Especially because I knew with what I needed to get done today that I could finish all the opening tasks before I left on my shift.
And if the manager was there helping me...then things would get done really quick....and I'd be left twiddling my thumbs at work for 4 or 5 hours. 

Sooo to avoid that, I just told the Stocking Manager that I would be fine in handling the opening of the department by myself (as I've done that multiple times before) and that I would just expect him to be available if I needed back up.

Well....what the stocking manager had neglected to tell me when he'd informed me of this shift change...was that he would also be coming in an hour later than scheduled because he's over his hours and needs to cut them down. 

So the stress was triggered at that point. Because like...I spent an hour wondering if the manager was even going to show up and if he would be available to help cover me or if I would actually be fully alone today....

So there was that little thought worrying at the back of my mind.

Add onto that that I had an idea spark with a story...and my brain went into a frenzy trying to figure out a good plotline and motive and outline and scenes for said story....

Which overthinking can cause tension too.

Add to that that there was an upset customer who called about a dead bird...and I ended up getting worried that I was the one who unintentionally helped them buy a cage that was too big for the bird so it got stuck between the bars....

I just ended up with a headache behind my left eye...triggered by tension in the left shoulder/neck area.

Thankfully some Excedrin, sleep and a heat pack have helped it go away. ^^;;

I ended up with a headache last night.
Possibly from just being overly irritated at work yesterday, and being stressed and tense.

But a bit of meds, distraction with a card game and a jaunt around the block helped it to fade away.
Which is great, because I seriously did not need to be dealing with a headache on top of a later work shift. 

If I Ever-Business

It's been a thought wriggling in my head today.
That if I ever own my own business, I am definitely enforcing our hours.
No one before.
No one after.
Only during the store hours will we help people.

Because today I found it irritating that at work we had multiple customers come into the store before we were officially open.
And then expect to get help.
Before we are open.

Like great. I get that the company wants us to give a good image and be helpful to the customer.
But how are we expected to get things done if customers come in through our doors an hour earlier than the signage states they should be coming in.

After all the hours are on the doors. 

>.< 

So. If I ever own my own business.
Phones won't be able to ring until the store is open
Doors would automatically lock outside of store hours preventing anyone without a key/code from getting in.

And there will be a huge "We Are CLOSED" sign on the door to show customers that No, they can't come in early, No they can't ask one question. No they can't be helped.

Because if my workers are in the store before customers are it's because they are needed for other things besides helping customers. >.<

Waking Up

Woke up this morning with the headache I went to bed with.

Thankfully some additional heat to my head along with some Excedrin helped to get rid of it quickly, and by the time I actually needed to get up and ready for the day it was gone.

So yay. ^^;;

Tense

I've probably thrown off my sleep schedule a bit. Taking a longer nap than probably needed. 
-But oh, so hard to get up when you're so nice and comfy and warm.

Yet the headache probably began back on my work shift.
When I reached that last couple of hours before I was off.
And the store was devoid of customers to help.
And all the tasks had been completed like three hours earlier.
So the tension of knowing I was stuck there with nothing to do...was starting to build up. 

Which means I probably need to drink more liquids....as I've eaten plenty of food today. 

*shakes head*
Hopefully some heat and a little bit of meds and such will help this faint ache behind my eyes go away. *fingers crossed*

It Begins

I had a faint headache start up towards the end of my shift at work.
I think it was mostly just from being...well tired of being at work.
The day had been rather slow, with random periods of busyness.
And I could feel the drain starting on me, of having to find stuff to entertain myself with between customers as we'd run out of things to do at like 10am today. 

*exhales*
Thankfully, getting away from work, some Excedrin, red meat, and a brief nap have gotten rid of the headache.
Though I fear that I may be coming down with a cold that's been affecting other coworkers for the past week.
Which foo. 
I don't need that. 
Hopefully tomorrow will see me recovered. 

-Sarnic Dirchi

Just to Chat

It wasn't like I didn't want to talk to her. I did. 
But work always came first.
And work....was crazy right now. 
So I couldn't do more than say hi. Do the basic "How are you's" and before I could blink, she was gone once more. 
It had to change at some point.
There had to be a day where she'd come into work when I wasn't trying to accomplish twelve things at once while helping customers.
A day where we could hold an actual conversation. 
That wasn't today though.
I could only smile and wave as she walked out the door, hoping that she would return soon...when it wasn't busy. 

-Inspiration from a coworker conversation

Long Day

My feet drag along the floor as I push open the door to my apartment. I dropped my bag just inside the door and took two steps to collapse on the couch, so glad to be laying down. My feet ached in agreement. Today had been...hard. So hard. There had been so much to do. It felt like I'd been running flat out since I got up this morning. Why? I pressed my face into the pillow. Why did there had to be so much responsibility placed on me so quickly? Why? I didn't know how much longer I could take this. 

-Inspiration from coming home from work

Suddenly Gone

Had a slight headache bothering me for most of the day and afternoon today.
Possibly to tense muscles and a mind whirling with too many story ideas.

I'm not even sure what ended up getting rid of the headache in the end.
Possibly just the drive home after getting out of the house with the roomies to grab a bite to eat.
Possibly. That or I just got focused enough in my writing after a certain point that I forgot that my head was hurting. 

...at least it didn't stick around long. 

Tick Tock

I ran my hand through my hair, giving the empty desk next to me a side glance before again checking the clock on the wall. 
Late.
She was late again my coworker.
I frowned, returning my attention back to the computer screen in front of me, my fingers racing over the keys as I deftly managed both her work and mine, hoping that I wouldn't have to keep it up for much longer today. I already had a headache pounding in my head. I didn't need to have to deal with her workload on top of mine. 
Again, my eyes drifted to her empty desk.
Honestly by now I shouldn't have been surprised.
In the beginning, when I'd been first hired, she'd always been on time. Showing up early even. Always at her desk, typing away when I walked in the doors.
But now? Now it was a surprise when she was on time. And...it was beginning to grate.
I'd been late to work once, and the boss had called me in to the office to give me a warning.
But her? Never a word. Never a complaint from the boss.
How could she get away with it? How could she not have already been fired? I didn't get it. And it frustrated me. 
I pasted a smile on my face as she finally walked into the room, three hours later, uttering a breathless apology. 
"It's fine." I manage, rubbing my temples. At least she'd shown up today. 

-Inspiration from people watching

Enough

"He is Weak!" She yelled, jerking to her feet, her eyes blazing. "I've been through the devil's wringer more than once at his age and do you see me complaining? NO. I put my head down and got to work and I survived. He needs to grow up." Honestly, how could no one else see that? They should stop coddling the boy. Had she been coddled growing up? No. Had she had to do everything on her own? Yes. It was not fair that everyone was treating him like a piece of fine china when she'd been treated like a paper plate. No. She would not stand for it. Not this time. 

-Inspiration from an overheard roommate conversation