Had a slightly stressful day today where I wasn't quite able to relax after work. So with tension building in my shoulders I have a slight headache working it's way up the right side of my head. It's not quite resting behind my right eye yet, and hopefully with some Excedrin and heatpacks on my shoulders, I'll be able to keep the headache at minimal levels. 

Brain: *comes up with new idea*
Me: Oh that's cool. We should write it---
Brain: RIGHT NOW!!
Me: Wha--Now?
Brain: YAH! SO WE CAN POST IT TOMORROW!
Me: ()_() POst...POST?! I can't write that fast!
Brain: *not listening* WRITE IT TO POST IT!!! COME ON HURRY UP!!! 
Me: But But
Brain: *chanting* Write write write!!

Ended up with a headache during the middle of the day as my hearing sensitives got dialed up a notch, mostly because I couldn't find a quiet place to relax anywhere in the house. 
Not with the roomies all home and doing cooking and laundry and other worky things...it just meant noise everywhere.
Thankfully after remembering to take some Excedrin I managed to get the headache behind my eye to go away. 
But it wasn't fun before that point. 

Woke up with a headache this morning.
Not quite sure why.
But the stubborn thing persisted throughout the day.
So either it's a nutritional headache of some sort...
or I just ended up sleeping tense.
With considering how busy and stressful work has been...tension wouldn't surprise me. 

Ended up waking up with a Major headache today which REFUSED to go away. 
I managed to make it less of a nuisance long enough for me to make it to church.
But before the sun had set I was left curled up in my room in the dark hoping for the thing to just go away if I rested long enough.
Such a pain. *exhales* 
Nothing I did helped it. At all. Probably because I'm stressing or something. *shakes head* 

I dropped to my knees, my breath catching my throat as I caught the faintest of red glows coming from underneath a large green leaf. 
With shaking hands I gently lifted up the leaf and laughed at the multi-colored glowing mushrooms sprawled out underneath. "Finally!" I said, grinning wide as I leaned in. It had taken far to long for me to track down these rare specimens. Now that I found them, I sure wasn't going to let them vanish again. 

-Inspiration from receiving some glow in the dark decorations for my fishtank

Hmm seems to be the week for headaches.
Probably holiday shopping stress is the main factor here.

Ended up with a major headache behind my right eye today while in the middle of the last of my Christmas shopping.
Which makes sense as I was foot sore, hadn't eaten or drunk much, and probably was tensing up from the stress of being around people and trying to find the last of the presents. 

I'm guessing that sleep (and probably taking out my contacts) will help get rid of the issue.
As heat and meds haven't really helped do more than take the edge off.

Woke up with a slight headache this morning.
Which isn't surprising considering I had difficulties falling asleep last night from my mind not wanting to be quiet.

So being tired with a slight ache?
Yah.
Wasn't surprised.

Ended up caving and bought myself a Dr. Pepper to help and took some Advil as well. 
It helped to get rid of the headache.
So yay!

Ended up with a slight headache throughout the day.

It started at work. The slightest tinge of one behind the right eye, due to tense muscles in the neck, but also wearing a new earpiece for our work radios....radios that have been on the fritz more than usual today. 
They were picking up a lot of interference. Crackling and Buzzing and Thumping. 

It was irritating. 
And was a problem that came and went as we tried to find out which radios were causing the issue. 

Thankfully some Excedrin helped to take the edge off of the headache so it never became a full blown issue. 

And it came back later in the evening...probably because I'd forgotten to eat. ^^;; lol. So I managed to make that one go away too. :D 

Me: So we need to edit this story so we can post the chapter!
Brain: *groans* But it's Ed-it-ting!! That's boooring and toooo much work!!!!
Me: But we need to post--
Brain: Look! *points* A Distraction!
Me: ….

Me: We should write a Christmas story!
Brain: Four Christmas Stories?!
Me: No! NO. Just one!
Brain: FOUR CHRISTMAS STORIES! WE CAN WRITE THEM ALL---
Me: We only have a week before Christmas we can't possibly--
Brain: CHRISTMAS STORIES!! FOUR CHRISTMAS STORIES!!
Me: *exhales*

Had a slight headache today at work....because my eyes were bugging me in that one contact was acting like it had something in it though I couldn't find any tears or such to cause irritation. And yah...it formed behind my left eye even though the left eye was the one being irritated. *exhales* Thankfully some Excedrin and a nap with a heatpack while I was on break helped to make it go away. :) 

She closed the door, biting back a sob as the tears fell onto her cheeks. She moved to the bed, collapsing face down on it, wrapping her arms around a pillow and hiding her face in it's white cover. "I can't do this." She whispers to the fabric. It was too hard to day. Too hard to be happy. Too hard to help others. She needed the help, but how could she ask? How could she demand such a thing. Demand a simple hug. A simple understanding that she just....wanted a moment of peace. To find happiness again. To not have to stress about others and be worried for them. Why couldn't....why couldn't life just go back to the old normal?

-Inspiration from Missing Mom and mourning

"It's like your capturing your mood in this." She whispered, gesturing to the picture I'd taken the night before of the sunset. "It's a clear night, the sun just an orange line on the horizon. It's calm. It's peaceful. It's just...relaxing. I think you're relaxed. And that makes me happy. Happy to see that you're relaxing."
I smile, silently nodding. I hadn't considered it like that before. But yah, it had been a moment of peace standing there on the deck trying to get the right picture at the right moment. It had been...rewarding. 

Inspiration from conversation. 

Brain: So tired.
Me: ….Yah.
Brain: We need to be less tired.
Me: ….Yah.
Brain:  How do we do the less tired?
Me: ….Sleep?
Brain: >:( But I want to write!!!
Me: ….but sleep? Tired.
Brain: *exhales*

They came they creep the sleep the need to sleep to creep to come. 

It's probably the lack of proper sleep, but I ended up with a slight headache after work today. It kinda just went away on it's own though...I think I got distracted from it and so it vanished. ^^;;

Brain: All the ideas!!
Me: -_-zzzzz
Brain: O.o *knocks gently* Hello? IDEAS!
Me: o_- tired. Go way.
Brain: BUT IDEAS!
Me: SLEEPY!!

I took a nap after work today because I've been rather exhausted....
And ended up waking up with a slight headache.
Which I halfway expected from how tired I was.
But at least it went away after I ate food and drank some liquids.
So yay.

Woke up with the headache still in place this morning. Though thankfully on the pain scale it was rather minor compared to the one I had yesterday.

So I took a couple of Excedrin and grabbed a Dr. Pepper for the caffeine and thankfully by the time my work shift ended my headache was gone! Woot! 

Now to keep it away. 

I ended up waking up with a major migraine this morning behind my left eye.

It wasn't really that surprising as I'd gone to bed rather exhausted last night from not being able to get in the type of nap I needed due to being social with others. 
And considering I worked a 10 hour shift yesterday....
On top of being sick.
On top of also dealing with peoples expectations and me feeling pressure to do/be things that I'm not normally....

It's not surprising that my muscles most likely tensed up during the night leaving me suffering this morning.

I did consider briefly, texting my managers and telling them I would be into work an hour later so I could sleep.

But no.
Stubborn me thought I would be fine once I got to work.

So I warmed up a heatpack, downed a couple of advil and went on my way.

….I ended up asking the manager if I could clock out like half an hour after showing up because I wasn't feeling good.
But I wasn't leaving.
No I'm stubborn like that.
I simply asked if I could clock out for like 30 minutes to an hour to go rest in the breakroom with my heatpack and just close my eyes to see if it helped. 

The manager gave the okay and I clocked out.
I ended up darting into the bathroom though because my stomach decided to be upset.

So that wasn't fun.
But resting in the breakroom was nice. I took some more meds and closed my eyes and it was...nice.

You know, until I tried to stand up....
And needed to dash to the bathroom again. *exhales*

But from experience, usually once my stomach finishes heaving, then I'm usually good to go and I recover more quickly.

I did feel better.
But the migraine didn't go away.
I ended up surviving off of sprite and crackers (that the managers had generously provided the day before) And once I had that settled....took more meds to try and get the  headache to go away.

It came and went through my shift.
Getting better.
Getting worse.

Thankfully I was off an hour earlier than normal.
So once I got home I was able to crash.

But the headache hasn't yet gone away. *exhales* 
It's still there.
lurking.
Even after the nap, the shower, the heatpacks, real food, liquids,  PastTense, and...who knows what else. I've tried a lot of things. 

I can only hope that some sleep tonight will help it be vanquished.
Because I don't want to have to deal with it in the morning. 

Brain: Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppp. 

Me: ….

Me: Yah okay. 

I hung up the phone and immediately collapsed onto the nearest chair with a groan.
"Why did I do that?" I muttered. What sort of crazy person agreed to work a longer shift at their job? Especially for two extra hours? It was crazy. I was crazy.
"I should have said no." I sighed, pushing to my feet. Too late now. Hopefully I would survive the longer shift. Hopefully.

-Inspiration from answering a call from work. 

I had the briefest stirrings of a headache today while I was work.
It was after dealing with a guinea pig, and taking animals to the vet, and customers and....
I took an Excedrin to knock the headache away from me and probably being distracted helping customers also helped to keep the headache from lingering. So yay. :D

I bolted upright from bed. "THE LAUNDRY!" I cried, swinging my feet to the floor and standing. 
I couldn't believe it.
I'd told myself multiple times to not forget I was in the middle of doing that and what had I done?
Forgotten it.
I darted to the drier, quietly praying that my clothes wouldn't be damp. It was so late now. So very late, I couldn't afford to dry them again.
I pulled open the door and reached in, feeling the first thing my hand touched.
I relaxed.
They were dry.

-Inspiration from doing Laundry

Me: *writing funk* 
Brain: I GOT IT!
Me: *perks up* YOU DO?!
Brain: Yah! I know how to finish this story!
Me: What? What do I need to do!
Brain: Let's just tweak the original ending and it will be perfect!
Me: …..
Brain: :D 
Me: ….you couldn't have realized this like....I don't know....six months ago when I first got blocked?!
Brain: ^^;; *shrugs* 

Me: We should write!
Brain: We should!
Me: ….
Brain: …..
Me: …..
Brain: ….
Me: So....what are we writing.
Brain: I....I don't ---there's too many choices!!! AHHHHH!!!!!!

He bit his lip to keep from groaning as he crouched down low to grab out the bag for the woman.
It wasn't her fault that his legs were sore.
It wasn't her fault that the store had placed product so low on the shelves.
Nor was it her fault that his legs were no longer used to crouching so much during a regular work shift.
But by golly. He didn't want to be here any longer.
A hot shower, a day in bed.
That was what he needed. 
To help his sore muscles relax.
And not keep pushing them to the limit trying to help others.

-Inspiration from being at work and having sore legs

"How do they eat it all?" I muttered as I stared at the table filled with more food than I had seen in months. 
She chuckled, pushing me closer to the table. "We don't." She said. "A lot of this will be put away and we'll eat it throughout the week. It's not meant to be eaten all in one day."
I blinked, mouth watering. For a week? Then why prepare it now? Why--
She gently sat me at the table. "Dig in, sweetheart." She murmured. "There's plenty to go around." 

-Inspiration from eating Thanksgiving dinner

Once again I was awakened with a major headache behind my eyes.
One that lasted well into the afternoon, basically until I got out of the house and distracted from...well things for a bit.

Guess we'll see if this morning headache thing continues tomorrow.

Everything aches.

For the past couple of days I've woken with a strong headache behind my eyes.

But also in my heart.
My stomach.
My shoulders.

Everywhere.

I suppose grief does that.

I mean...how can one process the loss of a loved one?
How can one comprehend the full magnitude of no longer having your Mother around?

I wake up with an ache behind my eyes.

An ache from crying.
An ache from sleeping tense.
An ache from stress and worry.
An ache from just....missing her. 


Posts may be sporadic for the next little while. 

Ended up with a headache briefly today.
Which isn't at all surprising, because I had to go to the dentist today.
And that always makes me go rather tense.
Which means my shoulders are tense and my neck is tense, and my jaw hurts from the numbing needle and having to have my mouth open...

So yah. Headache behind the left eye? Not a surprise at all. 

In the Dark

I froze as the lights suddenly went out, leaving me in darkness, the only light in the room shining up at me from my laptop. 
"What is this?" I whisper, slowly lowering the lid of my laptop so my face wasn't highlighted. Cautiously, ears alert for any odd sounds, eyes searching the darkness for signs of movement. The power wasn't supposed to go out. There was no storm outside last I checked.
So that meant--
My heart stopped as the handle to the front door rattled.
Uh oh.

-Inspiration from last night (no door rattling included)

Lost and Found

I took a step back, staring at the man liked I'd seen a ghost. 
"Daddy?" I whisper, shaking my head in disbelief. 
No. It couldn't be. Mom told me that he'd died. That they'd never found the body that--
He smiled, eyes filling with tears. "Hello, Pumpkin." He whispered. "I missed you." 

-Inspiration from a story

More Candy?

I blink in surprise as yet another child took just one piece of candy from my bowl. 
"That can't be right." I mutter, shutting the door once more. 
Shouldn't the children be taking more than one piece?
I was sure that was what happened when I was growing up.
We'd take two or even three or sometimes a whole handful of candy.

So why were these kids just taking one?
Had I only taken one?

I exhale, shaking my head as the door bell rang once more. I smile as I open it, holding out the bowl of candy as "Happy Halloween!" echoed in my ears. 
"You can take more than one. I told them quietly."

Excited grins met my words as little hands dug into the bowl. 

-Inspiration from handing out candy for Halloween

-This blog will be on a brief hiatus until Nov. 11th. :)

Ended up with a slight headache this afternoon. 
I think it's mostly from a roomie burning a candle that....has a scent that really...doesn't jive with me.
Like I don't mind the smell...mostly.
It's just a scent that...ugh. It's not like cleaning product scent, but pretty close to it.
So like if the smell is too strong it's just gets on my nerves.

Which is what happened today.

And the unfortunate thing seems to be...
That whenever my roomie decides to burn this candle....
It's on the days when I forget to shut my bedroom door.

So like I can't even escape into my room to get away from the scent.
Because it's permeated the entire space.

And gah.

It's stressing. 

The Migraine woke me up at like 230 am this morning.
Which doesn't bode well for you know...getting restful sleep.
But at least it stayed on the more mellow side of painful, to the point where I just heated up a heat pack and went back to bed until my alarm went off.

But yah, the thing insisted on persisting all the way through work and past work. 

Thankfully it's fading now. So hopefully it won't go into another day tomorrow.

But we'll see. 

I ended up with a major migraine today.
One that refused to be sated with hot showers, heat packs and a variety pack of meds.

*exhales*
A massage ended up helping the headache go away for the most part towards the later evening.

But overall...I just tensed myself out and I don't quite know why?
Was it because I tried to take a nap after church?
No...maybe? I mean my head was feeling fuzzy before that point.
But it was just steadily getting worse throughout the day.

So probably stress.
Probably the stress of wanting to write but being unable to write because my head was aching enough that I couldn't stare at a computer screen for long periods of time without making it worse. 

And it's probably just being unable to unwind from work, stressing over self set deadlines that I'm not making. stress over.... a lot of things. 

*exhales* 

Yah. Not a good day for my head. 

I knew it was coming as soon as the muscles between my shoulder blades tensed up.
Unsurprising because work was being it's usual Saturday stressful in that a lot of people were coming in and I'd just spent like the last straight hour helping customers out with the culmination of my last customer before I took a lunch being....a difficult one.
So the tension in my shoulders, going up to my neck, and then settling behind my right eye isn't all that surprising. 

Saturdays are usually the most likely days (besides Fast Sundays) for headaches to rear their heads because gah. There's sooo much customer service and soooo much need and I'm stressing trying to get opening done and making customers happy and my social battery is just draining and tensing me up and yah.....

Headaches aren't fun.
Especially when they're refusing to leave. 

I have a slight headache behind my left eye tonight.
More than likely it's from the tension of driving up north, getting my teeth cleaned, and driving back down south again. But yah...it's tension. Tension in the shoulders. Tension the jaw. and an ache behind the eye.

I ended up with a headache today.
It's festering behind my right eye.

And definitely was caused by tension at work.
Because I suddenly had a lot of stress placed on me where I had to do a labor intensive thing in a short amount of time unexpectedly.

That labor intensive thing?
Tearing apart three of our display fishtanks to get the fish out of them because we're taking them down and the power got shut off a day early so I needed to get them out 'now' so that they wouldn't be without running water and heat for too long.

*exhales*
So stressful.

Me: So we want to work on this writing idea.
Brain: This idea? *holds up different idea.* 
Me: No. THIS idea.
Brain: That idea? *holds up completely different idea* 
Me: NO WRITE THIS IDEA!
Brain: …...so no ideas then? No writing?
Me: No. Write this idea!!! Gah. 

Me: …..
Brain: …..
Me: …..
Brain: …..
Me: You know....this writing thing would be easier if you....you know, actually thought of things to write?
Brain: *suddenly has twenty ideas* 
Me: *overloaded with ideas* No! Too much! Too much!!! AHHHH!!!! HELP!!!!
Brain: :D

There's been a slight headache coming and going throughout the evening behind my eyes. Possibly its more tension based than anything else. Maybe need more food or something.
But yah...I'm just...tired. 

PayBack

I pulled open my bedroom door and paused, gazing down in bemusement at the gift my roommate had left me. A little tower of change stood, blocking my path. 
"Not quite how I expected to be paid back." I mumble, bending down to scoop up the handful of bills and change. "But it does work out." 

-Inspiration from Roommate Interaction

There are days when I really just....don't like working Saturdays. 
For the most part it's because I have to do a lot more customer service than on the other days of the week.
Which...while draining is okay because at least it keeps me busy.

Today though.
It was dead for most of my shift.
Which put me in the hard position of a) not having anything to do task wise and b) not having anyone to help which left me aimlessly wandering the aisles trying to keep myself entertained until someone walked in the door that I could help.

And that too...is draining.
I ended up with a headache much earlier in the day than I usually do on a Saturday workday. 

It came on around 1 or so.
Tension in my neck. An ache across both eyes.

*exhales* 
I was hoping taking a nap after work would help it.
No such luck.
It's moved to just behind the right eye currently, edging down past the ear into the neck.

So at least it's not the entire head that is in pain.

Still though.
Not fun to have to deal with. 

Slight headache behind the right eye tonight.
Probably because my right side from shoulder to hip has been aching throughout the day.
Who knows why.
*exhales*
It is getting tedious though. 

An Interloper

She stepped into the living room, eyes flashing as she glanced about the place, automatically judging the slight dust on the shelves, my feet on the coffee table and the Halloween decorations scattered about. "Oh." She sniffed crossing her arms. "Decorating for Halloween are you?" 
I frown at her tone, not liking how disapproving she sounded. 
"Yes?" My roommate queried a bit taken aback at the tone. "It's not even all up yet. I love this holiday." 
"Ah. Well..." She moved into the kitchen her judging eye taking in the semi clean counters and the bowls of Halloween candy we had on the table. "At least you got candy." She said, grabbing a handful of skittles. "That's the important thing." 

-Inspiration from visitors at home. 

Give Me Alone Time

They were there. Constantly around me. I couldn't escape them. The people. Every room I went in, there was another body. There was another sound. It was relentless. There was no peace. There was no quiet. There was no way I could ever relax. Not when the people were there. 

-Inspiration from not being able to get away from people at work today

Too Loud

His voice rang in my ear, blaring like a foghorn as his words inundated my skull.
I flinched, tearing the earpiece out of my ear, unable to take such a racket at such close range. "Ow!" I complained aloud, shaking my head, desperately trying to get the ringing to fade before I cautiously moved the earpiece back up to my ear. "Try and deafen me why don't you?" I told him, making a face. 
"Deafen you?"
It was quieter this time. Thankfully. 
"Yes. You were practically yelling that first time." 

-Inspiration from Work

The muscles from my neck down between my right shoulder blade and spine all the way down to my hip have been aching today.
Aching hard enough that I've had a near constant headache.
Which has faded in and out as I've rested my eyes and taken to putting heatpacks along the sore area to try and get the muscles to relax.
But honestly....
Why?
Why are you aching?
I haven't done anything besides like...write? 
Why have you decided to stress out and go tense like this right side of my body?

*exhales* 
Who knows.
Who really knows. 

I had a slight headache this morning followed by a brief respite before another headache came to take residence behind my right eye.

The first was probably from stress of going to Stake Conference today, as big gatherings of people have been known to make me tense.

The latter was definitely caused from the tension in the shoulders that comes when I'm focused on writing out my fic. ^^;; lol. So that one was self caused there. Too much writing. Not enough eating. Too much focus on a single thing.

I'm hopeful some sleep will help that go away. 
We'll see. 

Introverted

I shrank back, glancing at my phone, wondering how much longer I'd be stuck here. It couldn't be much longer right? But at the same time...by how much my companions were laughing and having fun, it didn't look like we'd be leaving any time soon.
I slipped my phone back in my pocket, pasting a smile on my face as the others tried to engage me in their antics.
I just want to go home. 

-Inspiration from hanging out. 

Haze

I stopped, staring up at the sky in shock, ignoring people as they shoved past me.
"No way." I breathed, watching the clouds. 
Staring at what was sitting on top of the clouds.
A mountain.
There was a mountain up there! FLOATING. I could clearly see no base beneath the clouds, but there on top of them? Snow covered peaks. As clear as day.
I blinked, rubbing my eyes, blinked again.
Still there.
I grinned. "Cool." 

-Inspiration from a hazy day with mountains peaking up over it. 

Brain: I GOT IT!
Me: *been struggling with 'reasons' for 'events' in a fic.* Got what?
Brain: The missing piece! I know WHY 'this' happens! and HOW to get the scene to work!
Me: !!!!! HOW?!
Brain: You need to write a prequel oneshot of  'this' childhood memory! It will all make so much sense!
Me: …..
Brain: :D 

A Happy Home

I stared at him in askance. "What?"
He grinned back. "Yah, my wife isn't going to be happy about this."
I frowned, raising an eyebrow. "....Wouldn't you want your wife to be...happy? Why would you purposely antagonize her." 
He shrugged. "Because I want the reptile."
"But your wife--"
"Technically said yes." 
I exhaled. Sure she did. I turned away to grab the paperwork. "Your funeral" I muttered. 

-Inspiration from work conversation

There's a slight ache behind my right eye currently.
Earlier I had a tension headache behind both eyes, but a little bit of rest, advil and a larger meal helped it to go away.
Now though.
The slight headache is back. 
Perhaps I need more food or liquids....or maybe to take out my contacts....we'll see.

I was right.
The headache kept me up for most of the night.
It wasn't as bad as they've been.
But it was bad. 

Tense muscles making it difficult to relax.
Thoughts spinning in circles round and round. 

Heat packs, medicine, showers....I did it all. 

The headache faded a bit.
Thankfully before I had to go to work.

So I wasn't suffering throughout my shift at work.
At least not until the last hour. 
So yay. 

But yah.
It's left me rather drained the headache.
And its still bugging me this evening. 
*exhales*

I ended up with a headache today.
Probably from the tension of trying to live tweet General Conference for four hours. 
*exhales*

It wasn't that bad during conference.
But as the evening progressed....
The tension in my muscles wouldn't fade.
And the ache behind my eyes just got worse. 

To the point where I was feeling sick.

So I'm going to bed early.
Hopefully the headache will go away.
But I'm not optimistic.
It's likely to be a headache that will keep me up all night.

….Guess we'll see. 

Flowers

I crouched down, fingers trembling as I touched the first petal in the bouquet. 

"Who?" I whispered, looking up, glancing around. Who had left these on my doorstep? And were they...were they really for me?

I smiled, picking up the vase, bringing the flowers closer to my face to inhale of their scent. "Ahh." 

It didn't really matter I suppose. I turned, heading back inside. The flowers were just what I needed for the day. 

-Inspiration from being given flowers. 

Sunset Musings

I leaned against the railing, breathing in the crisp autumn air, staring at the reddened skies as the setting sun briefly vanished behind a cloud.
"So this is Fall." I whisper, a small smile growing on my face.
Finally, after months of having to deal with heat and dryness.
I could finally feel at ease. 
Finally the cold was coming.
I looked forward to it.

-Inspiration from watching the sunset

Sore muscles.
Pretty sure it's sore muscles.
Pain. Radiating up from my hip to the ribs to the shoulders, up the neck, into the head.
It's all just one aching problem right now.
Causing a major headache that just has me feeling....off. Not quite sick. But getting there. 
*exhales* 
I need to get these muscles to relax.
Because getting a headache every afternoon this week is. not. fun. 

The trend of the week definitely seems to be getting headaches in the afternoon. *exhales*
I think this one is caused from working my muscles a bit too much yesterday so I was sorer today than normal.
-As bending and stretching and reaching to get decorations in your tank is rather....well my arm was sore today lol.

And it was the right side that ended up with the headache and the right side that did all the work.
So the headache is probably caused by those aching muscles. *exhales* 

At least taking out my contacts seems to have helped to release the strain. So I may have been too focused today as well...who knows. 

Ended up with another headache this evening.
Possibly from doing too much and not getting enough sleep. 
But possibly from tension.
Like...it's behind my right eye and the right side of my face has been aching off and on because I'm apparently being paranoid about it and therefore it's making everything worse because I'm focused on it. 
*exhales*
Hopefully sleep is the trick to making this headache go away. 

I would be tempted to think the headache I got today was a delayed reaction to yesterday's Fast Sunday.
After all I usually get a headache on Fast Sundays and didn't. 

But no.
I'm pretty sure today's headache was caused from too much interaction at work.
As it was oddly busy for a Monday. 
The phones were constantly ringing, There was a constant stream of people needing help. Cashiers were constantly calling for backup. 
And of course the managers were needing me to be every which way. 

*shakes head*

So I wasn't surprised to end up with an aching headache behind my eyes this afternoon as my shift ended.
I knew I would get one once I clued into how tense and aching my shoulders and back were.

An early indication that I've been overextending my energy. Been helping too many people. Been trying to do too much. 

Thankfully. It's gone.
Some food, baja blast, and Tylenol seem to have done the trick. :) yay. 

My Spot

"Next time I want you to sit up front." 
I froze, looking back into those bright blue eyes. Sit...up front?
A shiver crawled up my spine.
Why in the world would I want to do that?
Feeling everyone's eyes on me? Having the teacher being able to see exactly what I was writing in my notebook of thoughts?
It was an instant headache waiting to happen. Why in the world would I consent to something that would make me instantly stressed out? 
No. No thanks.
I smiled and shook my head. "No, I won't." I called over my shoulder as I walked out the door.
I chose my seat in the back of the classroom for a reason. To avoid the eyes. To avoid the stress. Next time I came to this class I would be sitting where I was most comfortable and at ease. 

-Inspiration from church.

>.< 
My manager triggered a headache.
By asking me if I had a headache.
When I didn't have one before. 
*exhales*

But wouldn't you know?
Within like an hour or so of asking that question.
An ache developed behind my eyes. 
Caused probably from the tension of dealing with customers. 
With having to socialize.
Gah.

It's annoying to end up with the ache behind my eyes from stress. From all the talking and people pleasing and such.

>.< 
I just want it to go away. 

I woke up with a slight headache this morning. 
From sleeping tense apparently as my shoulders ached when I finally pulled myself from dreamland.
Thankfully it faded pretty soon after I got up. Leaving once I got a heatpack placed against my spine and some food in me. ^^;;

A Resting Place

The kitten curled up in my lap, softly purring as she closed her eyes, leaning into every stroke of my fingers. 
"Awww." I cooed softly, smiling down at the precious tiny bundle that had chosen me to rest upon. "You're so cute like this." I didn't want to move. I wanted to stay like that forever....only I knew....I exhaled. "But I have to get back to work, little one." I whispered. "You can't rest here." 

-Inspiration from playing with the kittens at work

Leaving

Ten minutes to two.
I frowned as I heard the familiar beep of someone clocking out of their shift.
I glanced up, watching my coworker as he walked by without a word, heading out of sight.
"Did he....just clock out ten minutes early?" I asked aloud to my manager. 
My manager looked up to the clock above our heads, and then spun to the door. "You saw him clock out?" 
"Yah. Just barely." 
The grooves deepened in my manager's forehead as he turned, scrawling a note to himself on the pad of paper sitting there. "He didn't have permission to do that." He mumbled. 

-Inspiration from work.

Ended up getting a headache within the last hour or so.
Possibly from not eating enough food? Though it only occurred AFTER I hate things...so maybe it's something else. Stress? Not enough liquids? More stress? Too much sleep? I did take a longer nap than planned...so yah. maybe it's that.
Or you know...stress.....that's probably the main one. 

Brain: THREE IDEAS! I HAVE THREE IDEAS!
Me: Great...but you do realize we can only write one at a time.
Brain: *whimpers* But...THREE! All at the SAME time!
Me: That's impossible.
Brain: *throws tantrum and refuses to write any of them.*
Me: *exhales* 

It's been a twingy sort of day.
Like I haven't had a true headache.
But throughout the day...mostly towards the evening.
I've gotten these little throbs behind both eyes. Switching off.

Just like "throb pain gone." Nothing that lasts longer than like maybe five minutes?
Which probably means that my body is like "You're stressed. HEADACHE!" but for whatever reason I haven't yet....gotten that headache? *exhales* Who knows why that is.
But at least it hasn't arrived....yet.

It was a faint ache when I woke up this morning. Behind my eyes. 
Again.
So irritating.
And as I had to interact with customers at work...it only got worse.
A pounding ache behind both eyes.
Throbbing there.

Meds weren't helping.
But thankfully some caffeine seemed to do the trick. 
To help get rid of it. 

The headache behind my right eye was still there this morning. Still aching. Still draining my energy away. Tylenol seemed to do nothing. Advil...only slightly helped. Sleep only worked until I opened my eyes. And heat...heat was alright. It helped the ache be less annoying.

But it seemed like the main thing that worked to help the headache go away today was to go out and walk about. Explore. Get distracted with pretty things and just not think about thoughts that have been tumbling about my head.
Thankfully this up and aboutness has helped keep the headache at bay, so I haven't been suffering from it all day. Yay. 

I think I ended up with two headaches today.

I had one when I woke up this morning. Which is never fun. It was behind the left eye and was irritating for the first little bit of work, but thankfully went away.

The second one came after I'd come home from work and after I took a nap.
Probably slept wrong or the wrong length or something.
At least it varied itself though, taking up a place behind my right eye.
Meds and a shower haven't really helped it go away.
So I can only hope that more sleep will do the trick...

I woke up with a headache this morning.
Which...I wasn't quite surprised to have happen.
As there was that tired ache behind my eyes last night when I went to bed. The tired 'my eyes have been open too long' sort of fuzzy head thing.

But still.
Today wasn't a good day to wake up with a headache.
Because we had our new DM coming into the store today.
Which meant that I really needed to be present today at work to help with opening and make sure the department looked nice and such.

Ugh. Seriously though I hate these kind of headaches. 
It's like....a car that has a light on on the dashboard only you don't know what the light signals. Is it more sleep? Is it tension? Is it more water? Who knows!

But it's like I'm just puttering along...trying to get through the day.
And when finally the headache starts to break up and go away...it's like the brain kicks into gear. It 'wakes up' and becomes more active and it's just....weird...going from zombie to wide away. 

In any case.
Work itself was a semi struggle.
Thankfully the headache was the 'dull' variety.
So I wasn't feeling good and it ached.
But it wasn't skull splitting pain and wasn't making my stomach toss.
So woot for that.

It did it's usual rollercoaster sort of thing though.
Where the headache would get better, get worse, get better....

It usually got worse when I had to deal with customers or the vet or you know....customers. lol

But at least it was fading when I finally left work. 
And after a nap and such...it's stayed pretty much gone.
Hopefully it won't come back for a while. But we'll see. 

Me: *staring at all my half finished fics*

Brain: You know what might kickstart our creativity and convince us to come back and finish all these?

Me: what?

Brain: STARTING A NEW FIC! I mean, if we finish that one, then we can finish all these other ones too. 

Me: <.< *glancing back to all those half finished fics we started for that exact reason* Okay…sounds fake…but okay. 

I ended up with a bit of a pulsating headache today.
One that would come and go.
Mostly it seems to be affected by movement.

And was triggered when I woke up to a message on my phone that was...well I took it as stressful lol. *shakes head* So probably overreacted to it internally even if when answering said message went well with no drama like my brain was predicting would happen.

But then there was a four hour drive and just...the stress of those around me and.....yah.

It's been a pulsating type of headache.
Hopefully it won't stick around tomorrow. 

Hot

"How do you people live in this heat?" I complained, darting into the shade of a building as we walked down the block. "I'm sure my phone's melted by now from how hot it is." 
Clarissa laughed. "Some of us actually like the heat, Mary." 
I groaned. "You're all crazy." It had to be a hundred a ten today. At least. And only getting hotter it felt like. 
"You're the crazy one, sis. Who ever wants to be in the cold?  It's unnatural."
"It's easier to get warm than to get cool." I muttered. "I don't sweat myself into a puddle." 
"No you become blue like an icicle." 
"Do not."
"I have pictures."
I groaned. "Just...can we go somewhere with AC? Please. I'm dying."
She rolled her eyes, shaking her head. "This way." She called gesturing me to turn right. "I'll get you to somewhere cooler." 
I sighed with relief. "Good." 

-Inspiration from being in 100 degree weather. 

Me: We will write all day! 
Brain: Okay! What are we writing?
Me: What do you mean? We can write--
Brain: A lot of things yes...but like...I'm not feeling it.
Me: FEEL it!
Brain: But...I'm not.
Me: *struggles to write all day* GAH! BRAIN!
Brain: *shrugs*

A Race

A small smile played on my lips as I pressed the pedal to the floor, aiming to catch up to my opponent racing off in the distance. 

It was only a matter of time. I was a master at speed and my opponent...well they had a fair shot at it I supposed.

But even with my slight hiccup with the start of our face, I remained confident that I would catch up to them before the race ended. 

I'd done it before.

I would easily do it again. 

-Inspiration from driving.

Brain: *working diligently on story*
Me: *suspicious stare*
Brain: What?
Me: *blinks* Nothing....just....
Brain: ???
Me: You're not going to try and distract me? You actually...want to see this story to the end?
Brain: Ye-es? Unless you want me to distract you with another idea, of course I can--
Me: NO! No. Carry on! I'm good. ^^;;
Brain: >.> *shrugs* *resumes diligently working on story* 

Me: Alright! Let's finish this story!
Brain: *distracted*
Me: >.> What?
Brain: NEW IDEA!!!! *sparkle sparkle* 
Me: But our current.
Brain: Gotta write it now!!! *zooms off* 
Me: *exhales* Whhyyyy?!

Never Forget

The skyline hasn't been the same.
It can't be the same.
Not after everything.
Yet, still. I want it to be the same. I want to return to the time before the skyline changed, and with it the world.
I exhale, turning back from the double spotlights in the sky.
Returning into the apartment we had bought together.
That we were supposed to be....together.
If only...if only the skyline hadn't changed. 

-Inspiration from 9/11

Ended up with another headache today. 
Mostly due to spending like four or so hours staring at Yu-gi-oh cards, shuffling through them.
But the hot dry heat that I'm not as used to, and the lack of food and water during that time period probably also influenced the pulsing ache that moved up behind my eyes.

As a bit of time lying down, some meds, and food & water definitely helped it to go away. Woot. 

Me: Huh, this story is going pretty well. 
Brain: You know what that means?
Me: ()_() Oh no.
Brain: Let's...COMPLICATE IT!
Me: *exhales* -_- how about no? How about we keep it simple.
Brain: Complicate!
Me: Simple!
Brain: Complicate!
Me: Simple!
Brain: *complicates story* 
*story sits half written forever*
Me: >.> *whispers* Simple. *finishes story* Ha! 
Brain: *pouts* *throws hands up in the air* I gueeess! 

It's probably the stress of a) being in a new place and b) having to deal with hotter temperatures than I'm used to.
But I ended up with an ache behind my eyes again.
The sort of ache of either I need to drink more water or I got the wrong amount of sleep.

I didn't end up taking any meds for it though.
A bit of rest, a slight massage, and some food seem to have helped it go away. So yay! 

There was a slight ache behind my right eye when I woke up today. It persisted for most of the day...possibly residual tension from yesterday's more major headache.
Added into the stress/tension of driving all day....probably didn't help it....when driving in an unfamiliar area.
Though thankfully sometime through our hours long trek across the deserts the headache did vanish.
So Yay! :D

I woke up to a headache today--migraine? 
Who knows.
It wasn't as bad as other migraines I had had in the past.
Not nuclear.

But oh...it wasn't fun. 
It was one of those persistent things that just...drained the energy away. 
One of those persistent headaches that made it difficult to stand up right.
That made my stomach twist.

That had me fleeing work early because I couldn't stand to be around customers as their energy was negatively effecting mine. 

*exhales*
It's a good thing I went home, I suppose. It allowed me to rest. To regather some faded energy.
But gah. I hate leaving work early. 

Fighting a headache once more.
Probably tension.
Most likely tension.
*exhales*
Note to self.
RELAX ALREADY

I've had an ache behind my eyes for most of the day.
I don't quite know if it's been there since I woke up.
But it definitely was there throbbing throughout most of my shift.
Which made tolerating said shift a bit more difficult.
Because it's hard to focus when your eyes hurt and your back hurts and like....there's this pounding in your head.

*exhales*
It's not even a migraine...I don't think.
It's just one of those irritating mini headaches that's constantly there.
Is it from tense muscles? From a different work schedule? From not sleeping well? From meeting our new manager?

Who knows.

It's just left me drained though.
Not really wanting to do anything.
Or be anywhere.
Besides curled up in bed with my eyes closed. 

*exhales*
Hopefully it passes soon. 

Brain: *shuffling rapidly through story ideas*

Me: *groans* Just. Pick. One.

Brain: But which one which one which one which one which one?????

Me: JUST ONE!

Brain: *still undecided* 

Me: Just....forget it. Come back to me when you're not spinning like this, okay?