Goway

Have a slight headache forming.
Probably from a variety of things.
Focusing on writing.
Stress.
Possibly not eating enough.
But mostly just tension in the shoulders.
*exhales* 

Hopefully some sleep will help it go away. *fingers crossed*

Me: We need an Idea!
Brain: *spins wheel* Okay I'm on it!
Me: Excellent. 
Brain: *wheel stops between two ideas* 
Me: ….No. I need ONE idea.
Brain: Looks like the wheel says two. SO LETS DO BOTH!
Me: No wait that's---and there it goes. 
Brain: *spinning the wheel again* ALL THE IDEASSSSSSSS!!!

Lens Issues

Ended up with a headache today.
Mostly from my contact in my right eye bothering me.
Because I'd switched to a slightly older lens for today and it wasn't sitting right on my eye. It was blurry, fuzzy.
So the fact that my eyes weren't focusing properly contributed to the ache behind said eye that began to form.

Thankfully some meds and a different contact lens later....the headache has faded once more. 

Me: You always do this!
Brain: I know. I know. 
Me: We get 'this' close to finishing a story. And what do you do?
Brain: Get distracted?
Me: YOU GET DISTRACTED! You basically tripped at the finish line!
Brain: But....it was a cool new idea!!
Me: *exhales* yah....yah it was. ^^;;

No Alarm

The vibrating of my phone drew me from my slumber. 
Blearly I reached out, fumbling for the device as I blinked my foggy eyes open. 
I froze as the clock came into view and bolted upright in bed.
"Oh no oh no oh no" I breathed as I grabbed my phone, the display lit up with an incoming call. 
Work.
It was work.
The time.
I WAS LATE FOR WORK!
What had happened to my alarm.
I shot out of bed, stumbling as my feet tangled in the sheets, already switching out my clothes as I finally answered. "I'm on my way!" I breathlessly tell the person on the other side before they could speak. "Sorry. I'm on my way!" 

-Inspiration from being late to work

Brain: I can't decide.
Me: You should decide. We need to figure out a direction to go!
Brain: But....both options are good! Why can't we write both scenarios?
Me:....Because.....because.....
Brain: So we can write both scenarios!
Me: No! Well...yah! But...not for this story!!!

Seatmates

I gripped my plane ticket tightly in my hand as I walked down the aisles, searching for the right row. For the right letter in the row. My mind whirled with nerves. I hated traveling alone. I hated not knowing who I was going to end up by. Would it be a child? An old man? would I have the row to myself? I didn't know and that was what had my heart pounding. It would be just my luck to get someone awkward sitting next to me for the entire flight home. I hadn't had any luck in getting sat next to anyone I wanted to get to know before. For once it would be nice to have a cute guy sitting there who'd want to talk to me, where we'd have things in common and could chat.
I doubted it would happen though. 
It hadn't yet.
I slid into my seat, the row still empty and I exhaled. 
More waiting. I look up watching the line of people file past.
One of them would be seated next to me....but who.....who?

-Inspiration from flying

The Regular

He couldn't help but glance at the clock even though he'd looked at it only two seconds before. 
She was late.
He returned his attention to the till in front of him, breathing out a slow count of seven before forcing himself to inhale again.
She was late.
Why had he expected her to be on time the one day he'd made the effort to prepare her smoothie for her ahead of time. If she took any longer--
The bell dinged.
He looked up, forgetting to breathe as the redhead walked through the door, her green eyes sparking as her lips pulled apart in a hundred watt smile. "Hi!" She greeted him.
"H-Hi." He internally kicked himself for stuttering. "Your usual?" He managed to ask more normally as he swallowed over the lump in his throat. 
If anything she smiled wider. "You remembered?!" 
Of course he remembered, how could he forget when her order always was accompanied by that smile. "Mmmmm $5.67 is the total." 
She nodded, pulling out her wallet and blinked in surprise as he handed her her drink in exchange for her card, quickly swiping it through the register before she could do more than pull the drink back to her chest. 
"Here" 
"Oh. Uh....thanks!" She said ducking her head a blush spreading across her cheeks. "I...I really appreciate it."
He gave a little two fingered salute as she turned away. "No problem." He mumbled, watching her hair bounce as she pushed through the doors. It was worth it to see that smile. 

-Inspiration from customer interactions

Sticking Out

The place is fuller than I expected it to be when I enter the room. More people were gathered, which, in a way was a good thing. Because that meant that I, a stranger, could blend in a little more. In small groups it was harder to hide. But a larger group, oh yes, I could blend in quite nice---

I froze as eyes turned towards me, suddenly conscious of the clothing I was wearing, wondering if I stood out that much as an outsider as those eyes judged me and then looked away.

Had I been deemed acceptable? Was I included? Or would I be the outcast still? 

With heart pounding in my chest, I silently take a seat, careful to not make eye contact again. It only had to be for a little bit, then I'd probably never see these people again. I could do this...maybe....if they would all quit staring at me. 

-Inspiration from church musings

Brain: WHAT IF WE EXPERIENCED THIS STORY TROPE IN PERSON?! 
Me: you know that's not likely to happen. Life isn't like that in the stories.
Brain: BUT WHAT IF!
Me: what if what?
Brain: What if...you know....It does happen!? How should we react?! I mean....it could literally be like a storybook ending!

A Precious Moment

With utmost care I gently took the baby from my bestfriend, cradling her son in my arms. "Awww" I whisper as he blinked sleepily up at me, mouth opening and closing in a small yawn. He had to be the cutest thing ever! So adorable and small and--I found myself rocking him slowly as I stood there gazing into his adorable face. "He's so precious" I whisper. I couldn't believe it. So much cuteness shouldn't exist like this. Yet it did and I was privileged enough to be here to see it. 

-Inspiration from seeing best friend's baby

Aches

Woke up with a slight headache this morning.
Which could be from sleeping wrong in some manner, whether it was tense or I just got the wrong amount of sleep is rather unknown.
Though it seems to have been exaberated by not eating enough, because once I had a decent amount of food for lunch the headache faded soon after.
So note to self.
Eat more substantial food. 

Traveling Pain

I knew it was going to happen.
Because for the past little bit, whenever I end up going on a vacation to a new place...
I end up with a headache for a day or two.

Mostly from stress I think it is.
Stress from traveling whether it's via car or plane.
Stress from being surrounded by a bunch of people I don't know.
Stress from going to a new place....

I'd actually thought I did pretty well yesterday, with the traveling thing.
I did end up with a slight headache, but it quickly went away after I got some real food into me and took some Advil.
So traveling stress there.

But man, was I exhausted.
Moved forward a couple time zones on this vacation, and I was already reacting like I was living in that time zone with my need to fall asleep.

But...sleeping wasn't enough.
Woke up at 4am this morning (2am my normal time) with a major pounding headache.
*exhales*
Like I said, not unexpected because I usually get headaches when first traveling.
But definitely not welcomed.

It wasn't the worst headache ever.
And I'd come prepared to deal with a headache so I was able to take measures to help it go away.
But it didn't really help until after I made friends with the toilet. *exhales* 

So...it's a good thing I planned to take it easy today anyways.
Because idk how well I would have done if we had planned to go anywhere.
Hopefully dealing with the headache today will mean that the rest of the week I'll be home free in regards to that pounding in my head. 

Security Check

I held my breath as I moved through the security line, conscious of the small form hidden in my pocket. This was the moment where this entire plan could fail. Should I just be required to walk through the regular barriers all would be well, but if I got singled out to go through the body scanner....
I exhaled briefly touching the hidden pocket of my jacket that rested through against my heart. I could do this. My new tiny friend's life depended on it. 
Silently I move through the regular check, heart hammering in my chest as I walked past the body scanner, keeping my eyes on my bag waiting for me at the end of the conveyor belt.
Just. Keep. Moving.
I grabbed the bag and walked away trying my best to not break into a run.

-Inspiration from musings

Enegy Pull

Her presence pulled at me, the way her off kilter eyes couldn't quite meet mine somehow still seemed to hold the strength to keep my attention focused on her as she leaned in, demanding silently as she struggled with her words for me to listen to her. 
Yet. I found it difficult to.
Because I couldn't relax in her presence.
On guard, I did my best to fulfill her wishes, but it was never enough, and so emptyhanded she moved away, seeking out others to whom she could pull at and gain energy from. 

-Inspiration from a customer encounter at work

Outside Noise

I leaned back in the chair, letting my eyes drift shut as thunder rolled over me, the faint pitter patter of rain on the roof of the patio coming soon after.
It was peaceful.
Listening to the wind blow, to the thunder roar, to that pitter patter.
It had been far too long since I'd been able to relax enough to hear those sounds.
To be able to sit long enough to realize those were the sounds I was hearing. 
I needed to do this more often. I had missed this.

-Inspiration from sitting outside

The Ring

It seemed unobtrusive enough to take the ring and try it on just to see if it would fit. 

How was I supposed to know that it would.

Or that I wouldn't be able to take it off once it was snug around my finger? 

I gripped the ring, pulling it with all my might. "Umm...it seems to be stuck." I say to the woman as I look up.

The gleam in her eye has my mouth going dry. 

"Oh," she says calmly with a smile that sends chills down my spite. "It's not supposed to come off." 

-Inspiration from a random encounter today

Behind Both Eyes

I ended up with a headache towards the end of work today.
Not quite sure why.

It could be the usual work related headache of having to do too much customer service because Fridays and Saturdays are more geared towards helping people instead of doing tasks. 

Or it could be from not getting enough sleep/naps in the past handful of days. 

Who knows.
It was a major headache though.
A strong ache behind both eyes. 
That really left me with the impression that a bit of sleep would help it go away.
Sleep didn't help it.
It made it worse.
Which led me to believe it was tense muscles or not enough liquids/food so I ate something, took some Excedrin and then took a long hot shower to relax my muscles.

And thankfully something in that combination worked.
Because even though it was gearing up to be a major nuclear headache.
It's gone now. 

^^;; Woot. 

Me: So we already have like four stories involving this same concept so maybe we should---

Brain: COME UP WITH A FIFTH ONE!!!

Me: *face palm* 

Sleep Error

It came from sleep methinks.
The slight ache behind my eyes.
Probably from sleeping the wrong amount of time when I got home from work and took a nap because I was exhausted.
It was an ache behind the right eye this time, and the slight stiffness to my neck probably means that I slept tense. 

Thankfully, going to grab food and chatting with friends seems to have distracted me from the headache.
So hopefully it doesn't come back. ^^;; 

Me: Alright! Nearly done with the end of this story! Just a couple more paragraphs to tie it off!
Brain: That's cool and all...but.
Me: But?
Brain: What if....we end this chapter right here!
Me: ….but that's a cliffhanger.
Brain: EXACTLY!
Me: ….but we're like only 2 paragraphs from finishing the story!
Brain: *shrugs* But we should end this chapter here!
Me: …..
Brain: ^^;; 
Me: Okay...but how will we end the story then?
Brain: *shrugs* But at least this chapter ending is cool right?!
Me: *face palm* 

NightTossing

Despite my efforts, my headache went nuclear last night.
It was bad. 
I didn't really sleep more than a couple of hours it felt like.
Nothing was helping. Showers, meds, heat, scents, music, sleep, nothing. None of the usual go-tos did a thing. 
It was awful.
Still recovering from it.
Went to work with the headache still present, but at least it's been minimal as compared to last night.
Hopefully it fully fades by tomorrow.
But we'll see. 

It Continues

I ended up with another headache today. 
Not quite sure of the cause. 
Probably tension.
Interacting with people.
Having things go unexpectedly different.
Dealing with more people.

*shrugs*
Hopefully I can make it go away.
We'll see. 

ChatterChatter

I ended up with a headache today. >.< 

Which is frustrating, but not surprising because my vp manager brought up the topic today at work before we opened. Where he asked if I had a headache because I was being quiet and if I'm quiet it's because I have a headache more often than not.

I didn't at that point.
But usually if I say "No I don't." then later in the day I do.

And I did.
Because my Head Manager ended up being quiet the chatterbox over the radios today during work, and the constant voice ringing in my ear nonstop for most of my shift got me tense and irritated because I couldn't focus on talking to customers or finishing tasks with the constant buzzing in my hear. 

So far nothing has really helped the headache stay away so hopefully some sleep tonight will....

Me: We're going to wri---

Brain: LET'S DRAW!

Me: O.o But...we haven't drawn in...like years!

Brain: But this story idea is soo cool but we need to Draw it instead of Write it!!

Me: But...writing?

Brain: Draw!!

Me: *exhales* Okay...

A Fence Barricade

It wasn't like I had ever been curious about what was on the other side of the fence dividing my backyard from the neighbors.
I'd had no reason to look over after all. And the fence itself was rather tall, taller than any normal fence by any means. 
The neighbors were quiet too. Folks that kept to themselves, though I could hear their voices in muted conversation on occasion, and even more rarely smell the scent of a BBQ on their side of the fence as I hung out on the hammock strung between two trees. 
There'd been no reason to look.
Until the windstorm had knocked the fence over.

-Inspiration from a conversation on fences around our house. 

Up In Smoke

He sat staring at the paper in his hands, frowning. "She can't be serious." He mumbled. Though after dating her for eight months, he had a pretty good handle on how crazy his ex-girlfriend was. This notice he'd gotten in the mail that she was suing him for her possessions that she'd lost in the apartment fire three months ago only proved it. 
He didn't want to believe it was true though. Like Seriously. How was it his fault she'd lost her stuff?!The fire hadn't been caused by him at all! No, it was some faulty wiring in the basement where the laundry was that had caused the place to go up in smoke. Everyone had lost everything. 
So why sue him?
Why try and take what little money he had left in a quest to replace things?  At least she'd escaped with her life! She had made the choice to move some of her things into his place. It had been her fault for not coming to grab them as soon as they'd broken up. He wasn't liable for her stuff. 
Yet here he was...sitting with a notice in his hands telling him he was.
Ha. 
No. No way was he going to play that game. He'd have insurance look into it, and his lawyer friend. She had no grounds. No grounds at all. 

-Inspiration from random musings

If I Ever -Social Media

If I ever create my own social media platform that gets popular....

I'm going to stick with a chronological time feed. 
So your posts will always be in order of when they're posted.

BUT.

I would also incorporate a feature that keeps track of when you stopped scrolling...maybe at what point you left the webpage.

And then when you click back into the webpage, it will return you to the spot you were last at.
And the webpage would give you the option to continue scrolling from that point either up or down to read newer posts or older posts.
And of course there would be like a "Home" button or a "New things" button that you could click on that would take you from the spot you originally had left from to the current posts so if you don't want to scroll and see what you missed you can just go to 'most recent' and go from there.

Yah...that would be cool.
Especially the option to scroll up to newer posts without having to refresh the page....

You Have One?

So for the past couple of days, I've been dealing with the after effects of nearly having our house burn down due to a brush fire that started behind us.
The main after effect being that our house ended up getting filled with smoke from the flames. 

So when we walked inside our house, it would smell like a campfire and such.

It was really strong the first night, 
But we managed to get the smell mostly gone the second day.
And today there was a deeper clean done on the house to get rid of the final smoke stuff. 

And today....one of the people helping us clean asked me if I'd been suffering from Migraines due to the smoke.

Which I actually hadn't.
Like I'd gotten faint aches here and there.
But I was quick enough to realize that I just needed to move to a place with cleaner non smokey air to have that twinge go away.

What is interesting though, is that It seems like whenever someone asks me: "Do you have a headache?" or "How are your headaches going?" And I actually haven't been suffering from one....

That I end up getting one later on.

It's like a trigger or something. Who knows. It stresses me out to think about headaches and so therefore I give myself a headache because I tensed myself?

*shrugs*

Though I do kinda think that the current headache that's settling in behind my right eye might be more from exhaustion than anything.
Since I haven't been able to get enough sleep the past couple of days.
It wouldn't surprise me if tonight's headache was caused by that.

Which is why I'm going to try and head to bed sooner rather than later so that I can hopefully get this headache gone. 

Tired

Exhaustion hit me like a wave once the last person left my house.
I collapsed on the couch, letting out a soft exhale as forced my eyes to stay open.
It had been a long day.
Far too long on far too little sleep.
And only now was I realizing how tired I was. 
How exhausted. 
I needed to sleep...but there was so much to do. 
With a weary sigh I forced myself to stand from the couch, running a hand through my hair. "I can do this." I whisper. "Just a little bit longer." 

-Inspiration from today

Billows

I stood across the street from our house, roommates arms locked in mine as we watched the column of smoke billow up behind our house. 
"It's going to be okay." I whisper. Over and over again as we wait for the firetrucks to show up. "It's going to be okay." 
I knew the flames were back there. I knew that they were approaching our house. 
It was a race. Between fire and firemen. Who would reach our house first...and at the end....would we be homeless? 

-Inspiration from having our house nearly catch on fire. 

What's the Truth

I'm not lying. 
The voice echoed in my ears long after the person who spoke them had vanished. 
I'm not lying. 
I grimaced, resting my head in my hands as I stared down at the photos and notes scattered on the desk. 
I'm not lying. 
"But how are you not?" I whisper. "How?" Everything pointed to him being involved. Everything pointed to him lying about the scenario.
So why did his voice still echo in my head.
Why did I believe him?
That he was innocent. 

-Inspiration from watching Evil Genius on Netflix